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Well, It's been awhile since I've posted a decent journal entry. Nothing much has been happening in great Edmonton. Just the same old crap.

'' Dustin do chores,Dustin do this, Dustin do that.'' That's basically it.

Life is so bland. But you know what, recently I got something that might spice it up abit. I got this small text book about the basic licence for driving.

I have to memorize this book inside and out, or else I'll be screwed come testing. >.<

I'm really tired of people two timing me; making up bullshit excuses to hate me or make plans and then decide to change their minds at the last minute.

It's really pissing me off. Make up your damn minds, dont just say something for the hell of it to try and get my hopes up.

Erg, enough of me bitching; 3 sentences and already I'm annoying myself, lol.

haha, the other night me and John took Misty to the movies.

Good lord it was the funniest thing I've ever seen in my life! John was acting like a nut sack around her.

He was on his first real date with her, so I thought it was cute.

The movie we went to go see was called 'V for Vendette', and it kicked serious ass. I loved it.

One thing that I noticed though, there was alot of blood in it, and really harsh language like '' You stupid fucking cunt!'' it was really weird.

When I perchased the tickets I thought it was a 14A movie, but it was obvious that it wasn't. It must be my deep voice that got us in. ...Creepy...

Anyways, later on we walked her home. She was kinda --- well really, I didn't like her attitude at all.

Everytime me and Johnny would offer her something she would like -- glare us down like we were some kinda retards trying to steal her purse or something.

It was really pathetic. Haha, one thing though that I found interesting is the fact that shes really shy around John.

Something that was abit surprizing to me was right after we left, we saw my old friend Dylan.

He's still Johns friend, but I hardly know him anymore. He had this big huge curley aphro, it was crazy, and hes about 2 inchs taller then me.

Like-- 5''9-5''10. I looked at him and he looked at me, and it was an awkward moment.

He didn't even recognize me cuz of how long my hair is now. He probably thought the Dustin he seen before still had that spikey hair style( which I regret because it looked really--bleh.)

But oh well, life goes on.

I wish Kevyn would talk to me. I miss her alot, but it seems like she is afraid of me.

I wonder if she's alright, lol, she's probably really busy, as usual. I guess I shouldn't worry too much about her, shes probably doing fine anyhow.

Haha, on our little galivant home at like-- 11pm, John found a plastic bag on the ground.

Lmao, being as dumb as he was of course he put it on, and was like '' Yo im the ghetto king, I have a paper bag and a million dollars, what up home dawgs!Whut up!$#?!?!BOW!*lil micheal jackson spin*'' I litarally laughed my ass off, I was so confused at what he was trying to do.

It was like watching micheal jackson and snoop dog trapped in a plastic bag.

But it made me think... if I have a million dollars...what would I do?... first thing, I'd probably get myself a wine gum factory and then buy myself a 711 lol, then all the band eqipment I need.

Like a flying V or a cannibal corpse drumset. Hm... what if you had a million dollars? what would you do with it? be sure to tell me with comments on this journal.

Clubs I hope to be in soon:

Read Alone.....

Especially the Poem




I believe whatever God has in store for

us will be for us.




The poem is very true, unfortunately.




Make sure you read the poem!






CASE 1: Kelly Sedey had one wish,

for her boyfriend of three years,

David Marsden, to propose to her.

Then one day when she was out



to lunch David proposed!

She accepted, but then had to leave

because she had a meeting in 20 min.

When she got to her office,

she noticed on her computer she had some e-mail's.

She checked it, the usual stuff









from her friends, but then she saw one

that she had never gotten before.

It was this poem. She simply deleted it

without even reading all of it.



BIG MISTAKE! Later that evening,

she received a phone call from the police

It was about DAVID! He had been in an accident

with an 18 wheeler. He didn't survive!

CASE 2: Take Katie Robinson She received this poem

and being the believer that she was

she sent it to a few of her friends but
didn't have enough e-mail addresses to send out

the full 10 that you must.

Three days later, Katie went to a masquerade ball.

Later that night when she left to get to her car,

she was killed in that spot by a

hit-and-run drunk driver.
CASE 3: Richard S. Willis sent this poem out

within 45 minutes of reading it.

Not even 4 hours later walking along the street

to his new job interview with a really big company,

when he ran into Cynthia Bell,

his secret love for 5 years. Cynthia came up to him









and told him of her passionate crush on him

that she had had for 2 years.

Three days later, he proposed to her and they got married.

Cynthia and Richard are still married

with three children, happy as ever!


This is the poem:

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,


Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,

And before I know it, a year is gone.


And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."

But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,

And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might
be too late.

Seize the day. Never have regrets.



And most importantly, stay close to your friends

and family, for they have helped

make you the person that you are today.

You must send this on in 3 hours after reading! the letter

to 10 other people.

If you do this, you will receive unbelievably good luck in love.


The person that you are most attracted to will soon return to you.

If you do not, bad luck will rear its ugly head at you .

T HIS IS NOT A JOKE!

You have read the warnings, seen the cases,

and the consequences.

You MUST send this on or face dreadfully bad luck.

*NOTE*

the more people that you send this to, the better

luck you will have.

! SMILE, even through your tears!!!!!

Alright, I lied to you all. You punk asses have seem to have brought back my addiction for the internet, so im gonna stay, and do my best to hang out with all of you. It's true that life is much, MUCH, better outside the box, but, BUT, there is no reason why I can't come and visit my internet buddys every now and then now is there?!? Anyways, lots of stuff is going on this following week for me, and i'm pretty excited.


MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL, BY THE WAY!!!! *Aheam* Yeah, lol. This week, so far, is really busy, friday I was kinda disappointed with a lie that I got from what I thought was a close friend, but I guess I was wrong. Saterday, w00t!!! CHristmas Eve Yeah baby, THERE MUST BE SOMETHING SPECIAL TO DO ON THIS DAY!!! But once again I thought wrong, and ended up cleaning my house up untill there wasn't even any dust left!!!>< Sunday, alright, Christmas day, best day ever, wonder whats under the tree for me this year?!?!?! I look, and I got about 4-5 presents and some really small candy packages, about 6 of those.


I was really happy ^_^ Then later on, I went to my grandmas, and got some more cloths ^_^ lol, I was really pleased with this, even though it wasn't much. Heh, the cloths I got from my grandparents were a shirt that was black, and some black jeans, there was a logo on the shirt in red that said'' Warning! you have the right to remain an idiot. Everything YOU say can and will be ignored!!!'' XD lol im gonna wear that one to Robbys and be like'' What??? i'm sorry Robby, IM NOT, LI-STE-NING!!!'' >=3 *aheam* Anyways, today was pretty fun, but busy. Went to my grandmas to visit my grandpa again before he went back to toronto, and it was kool.

He's a really nice guy, but I just-- don't talk much when it comes to socializing with others, and it's not cuz I don't like speaking either, or because i'm shy, it's just because half the time no one listens to me. It's probabily cuz I say my sentences to calm and deep for them to hear me. :\. Erg, anyways, I've been listening to too much of The knack and the guess who lately lol. Today was odd, and rather fast, me and my mom and my sis went to a friends for turkey dinner and watched a movie that I found hilarious, it was about 3 town guys who end up becoming cowboys, it was friggin hilarious >:3 its called city slickers or something like that. After that, we came home, and know, here I am lol, writting this journal.

Tomorrow, around 2-4 pm ish, im suppose to be going with Kevyn skating, which I hope, should be fun. I haven't skated in a very long time, since about, grade 6. Then, at 6 pm, im gonna grab something to eat, and head to Robbys dads, and then we are gonna head to Warrens with Heather as well. Then, we're gonna have some major band practice, and im gonna spend a couple nights, maybe even the whole week, at Warrens, but I doubt that, cuz I want to see Kevyn again before the holidays end.Im pretty excited. Yeah, that's whats going on, pretty much lol. I've been doing alot of lurking with the spare time i've had on the internet, and i've been looking at people on DA who are usully really popular or are just plain good artists.

Something I came to notice, while in my little ''Lurking hour'', I found someone that was on furcadia, which is a game I enjoy playing often. Her account on it was known as Satires, and she was really popular, but we didn't talk much, which isn't something surprizing, when we did talk, it was usully the just'' hey, hey, how're you?, good you? im good thanks for asking'' kinda convo, or it was to try and calm her down. Which I hope she is doing alright, she really is a great person, and I saw that instantly from her worrying of her child. It made me think alot about a recent event that had happend, I wasnt home for 8 hours about or something like that cuz I was at whyte ave, thinking Kevyn would be there. While I was there, my mom was in a panic and called everyone up, and there was a little search team of friends out looking for me, Kevyn was balling her eyes out, and my mom was also crying when I got home, which really, REALLY, surprized me. Even Robby was giving me shit, which is rare, unless hes being an asshole. I felt like shit afterwards because of this, and it made me think about how what if something did happen to me, and how sad everyone would have been.

I didn't even think I really matterd that much to everyone. It was one hell of a journey home though lol, I had hoped the train, and walked about 4-5 blocks to whyte ave, I waited at second cup for hours, a read a book, and then after a very long time of waiting, I decided to leave, so I had to walk really far this time, and then I had to hop the train again, and then I had to walk really REALLY far to get to my house, I had to go through two very large strips of absolute plains, and I had to go 8 blocks down once I got to the roads.

But yeah, anyways, this person had made me think, cuz the reason she was so upset, was because she let her bf or w/e he was to her be with her kid, and he had gotten taken to jail and the baby was with him, so she was freaking out. I still feel bad about being really blunt to her, and if she reads this, then im sorry. The chances of her reading this are really slim though, but, I never had a dad. I looked at some of her pictures, and they were of her and her kid...and it made me think about me and my mother...my dad was never around, always getting into a whole bunch of shit with cops, and once, he was drug dealing, and ended up getting beat with a baseball bat and getting serious brain damage. Even at that, afterwards, even though he was pretty much mental, he had went and stole a whole bunch of shit and got caught.

Now hes serving 5 years in prison, but I dont really care, he probabily wont make it through them anyways, because of his brain damage. I just, really thought it was odd, I felt some kind of, a connection with this Satire person. Hopefully, i'll get to talk to her more in the future and develop some kind of relationship with her. I hope she does good in life. For some odd reason, i'm really worried about her. I hope she's alright. Yeah, she might know me as Steele fang on furcadia, but still, the chances of her reading this are slim.


Check out her page everyone, shes got some really kick ass art, too, I think she's really talented---> He's done alot of shit to me and my mom in the past. He's cheated on my mother, stolen things from me and her, and did a whole bunch of terrible things. Satire, if you are reading this, Personally, I think shes better off without someone like that, unless you truly love him.

Lol, that reminds me of a time Jim was spending a night at my moms place, he had gotten drunk and I had asked him for the phone, because I wanted to call someone, I cant remember who, probabily Kevyn, and he said' FUCK OFF YOU FUCKER, IM USING THE PHONE, AND YOUR NOT ALOUD TO TOUCH IT!'' lol, funny think is the phone was just sitting in his lap, and I just gave him an emotionless look and clenched my fist, but just turned away, thinking i'd get the phone later.

I shruged and looked in the kitchen and saw my dinner on the kitchen table, and then all the sudden I hear*Thump*Thump*Thump* and hes in the kitchen, and technically trampled over me.

He's like ''DONT TOUCH THAT, ITS MINE!'' And once again, I found myself standing there clenching my fist, and then I just sigh and shake my head slowly, and then he throws down his cuttlery and comes up to me and pushs me as hard as he could, I went back, but I didnt fall, and hes like'' What, you got a problem?'' I didn't say anything, but I was ready to beat the shit out of him if I had to. He had brain damage though, so i'd figure i'd have to be careful, cuz he had recently had an operation on his skull, I then stopped my anger and thought about his brain damage and just stood there, and my mom came down and she just fuckin flipped on him and sent him packin. I was surprized, and yet happy. Anyways, that concludes my journal entery, MERRY XMAS ALL, AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!Later!

hm. well its about 11pm here, and ive been thinking alot recently....about everything...everyone...and unfortunatly, how short life is...and well, I figure, I want to enjoy it the best I can... theres so many beautiful things in life...and I just want to see them...ill always remember the good times, and the bad times...heh...like when Teddy and me first met, when he had the broken leg and I wanted to play around with his crutchs....heh...or the time me and robby had a party at his dads, and me and him had an all out mercy fight which could have lasted for days, but his dad had to call it a draw on us ...I thought it was pretty fun... or the time Jamie and me stole a piece of the grade 6 graduation mini party...oh ill never forget that one... life is just so fragile...and we should all realize its something that we only get once, so we should try enjoy it the best we can...I remember going to a school BBQ a very long time ago...heh....me Jarrett and Kevin got chased around the entire place by girls, and of course, Kirk had to try and help out by chasing them ....man how I miss the old days...sometimes I just wish those kind of moments would last forever, but they dont...heh, I remember my very first kiss... I was so nervous...I almost fell over ...heh, Tyler and Moe are awsome, playing hockey with them was really a work out^^....ah yes....i remember John , Shayna, Justin and Ziad, Cameron and all those great people that i've known for so long, lol, i've met so many great people in my life...Kayla and Kevyn were probabily the greatest people out there...they really are the greatest....I bet everyone has moments like these in there life, embaressing moments, shy moments, obnoxious moments, happy moments, sad moments and so on... its a funny thing isnt it, when you think back on your memories.... I remember my mother telling me i should always treat people as equal, and I do to this day, just because somebodys skin colour is diffrent doesnt mean there not a good person... like really, were all humans, I think racisim is the dumbest thing out there...im really glad and proud about how far ive come in my life, and ive traveled a long way, ive met so many great people, and ill never forget any of them...will keep making memories everyday, and will always be able to look back at them and remember how great those moments were.... thats why i've decided to quit DA, i'd like to be out more often and less on the computer, making those memorie's. I think their's only one thing that I need in life, one thing that I need to survive, nothing else. I want to see Kevyn, and I cant wait to go to her house this sunday...^^...she's amazing, I miss her tons and I wish she where here right now...hopefully sunday will come as fast as it can...I hope to see you REALLY soon Kevyn, I also can't wait till December 15th, for reasons I would like to keep to myself ...and for all of you that dont think I care about ya, I do, but really, their's more to life then just sitting on the computer all day and all night, and I was glad to have met all the wonderful people on DA...you know, if it wasnt for DA, I would have never met Kevyn...ive met alot of people on DA, and all of them, ALL of them, have made DA great for me....

Everyone ive met on DA the very first time I got my account and artisits i think are great, you guys are awsome, you know who you are.

...and a quiz I never got around to doing for some pals, which I figured id finish now. so, here it is:
ANGER
1. With whom did you last get angry?: alot of people, but half the time i just keep it to myself...
2. What is your weapon of choice?: I dont use weapons. I use what god gave me, my fists, martial arts help too. But...I guess i'd like to use a sword or a chainsaw
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?: ...
4. How about of the same sex?: ...
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?: mother.
6. What is your pet peeve?: dunno
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?: I
let them go easily, it would have to be something really bad for me to hold such a grudge.

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?: umm...not sure
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?: arg >< like at --- 6 pm ...I over slept, and it felt horrible.
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: hmm...id have to say hailey, but meh...
4. What is the last lame excuse you made?: ''then why not just do it yourself?''
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)?: yes -_-
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in?: oh man ^_^ the other night still abit sore from it too. ><
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?: >>;....none lol

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?:*shrug*
2. Meat eaters- white meat or dark meat?: Both are fine with me, If its food, i'll eat it.
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? like--- 2 sips of beer>>;...unless you mean koolers then...like...2 of those.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?: nope.
5. Do you have an issue with your weight?: nope.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?: they're all good. It depends, usully ill just eat to fill my hunger, but if I am craving something, its usully sweets.
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, LUNCH?: hehe...yes, I have many times, But I wouldnt ever say anything outloud about it.

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?: TOO many O_O;;;
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?: A few.
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?: no...that would be rude.
4. Have you done it?: ...
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?: Doesnt matter.
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?: no.
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD?: i think so.

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own?: 0
2. What's your guilty pleasure store?: i dont think i have one...unless their's such thing as a wine gum store...>>;...then that would be it.
3. If you have 1 million$ what would you do?: probabily buy a better house. fill all my friends in it. buy some huskys, buy a wine gum factory ^.^ and probabily donate some to those that need it, for like the kids in etheopia who are probabily starving to death as we speak, and id probabily also save 25 000 of it for like-- my pension money or something.
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?: famous.
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?: hmm... im not sure on that one.
6. Have you ever stolen anything?: yes, I have, but it was in grade 4 >>;...and it was a gameboy lol, that I ended up giving back to the person...other then that, I havnt stolen anything.
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive: I dont have an mp3.

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?: helping others, and staying honorable.
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?: umm--i dont think they really care.
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?: id like to do something importent in my life, something that everyone would remember and want to be when they get older.
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?: Nope.
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?: haha, yeah.
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?: A few times, by I try to avoid cheating.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of?: umm--I
cleaned the house. lol.

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?: kevyn.
2. Who would you want to go on Trading Spaces with?: MWHAHAHAHAHA kevyn.
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?: ...rick james...JK LOL
4. Have you ever been cheated on?: yep, tons of times.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?: erm...not really
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?: ...i wish i had better lungz, then i could run faster. im really good at running to, my endurance is crap though because my lungz give out alot...
7. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?: >>;...

THE SEVEN HEAVELY VIRTUES

FAITH
1. What religion do you follow?: Christian
2. What religion were you raised as?: Christian
3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property?: mmm...both
4. Do you have your own commandments?: nope
5. What was the last promise you broke?: im not sure...it would have to be like---4 years ago...haha, when i promised that i would buy bryan a new skateboard, and i didnt
6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it?: if i prayed, and didnt mean it, then what would be the point in praying?
7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect?: no, their is noone that is perfect in this world.

HOPE
1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season?: nope...but im still happy with what i got.
2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for?: im really not sure...havnt thought about it much.
3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure?: yes, alot of times actually.
4. Freedom or fate?: both.
5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket?: nope, i dont plan to be a gambler.
6. Do you gamble?: no.
7. Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway?: Haha, yes ^_^

CHARITY
1. What causes do you support?: any, it depends on which that need the most.
2. What causes have you given money or time to?: eh? i didnt get this one.
3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless?: actually, yes, i have once, when i was about 7 ^^
4. Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel?: yeah sure, why not?
5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street?: it depends on what these homeless look like...if they're homeless because of drugs, then no...but if their homeless because they've lost their jobs, and/or have mental disability's, then yes, i would give them money.
6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food?: yeah
7. What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need?: hmm...id do pretty much anything for my friends, depending on what they needed.

FORTITUDE
1. What are you most afraid of?: nothing, the only thing that actually scares me in life, is living without a purpose.
2. What did you do today that was really brave?: well, i took a shot in the stomache from a kid who wanted to start a fight with one of my friends, well, the punch wasnt orignally aimed at me, it was aimed for kyle, so , i decided to step in the way and take the hit, in the end me and kyle both restrained cody from the violence, instead of just beating him up back, and talked to him about what was going on.
3. Who is your favorite superhero, and why?: umm...hmm...im not really sure about superhero's...but i do have a hero...and her name is kevyn ^^
4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone?: yes, anytime.
5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart?: hm...this is an odd question...im not really sure.
6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? yes, quiet a few times.
7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower?: i dont consider myself anything...somepeople consider me as a leader...some people consider me as a follower...

JUSTICE
1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty?: nope
2. If there instituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it?: I would go.
3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)?: hmm...thats actually really harsh...but then again, some people do have to learn from their mistakes...but--nah, I
dont support it.
4. Which should be guaranteed legal?: sitting in the back of a truck.
5. Do you believe that George W. Bush is rightfully President of the USA?: no, I dont.
6. What was your favorite media circus trial?: none.
7. Have you ever written a letter to a politician?: nope...erm..wait..louis hole, i think...( lol not even sure if i spelt the name right)

TEMPERANCE
1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on?: not sure.
2. Do you collect anything?: hmm...nope...
3. Are you addicted to anything?: kevyn...
4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan?: nope.
5. What's your preferred method of paying for things?: cash.
6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do?: hmm... probabily back talking the teacher, because the teacher i have is really sensitive, and ifeel really bad afterwords because she treats me as the best student in her class, but only because i have the highest grades...i still feel bad for getting mad at her, but she was kinda picking at me this one day and i was having a bad day...
7. Do you feel that you obsess over things?: not really......ok ok...kevyn...so what?...

PRUDENCE
1. Who is the wisest person you know?: im...id have to say my grandmother, i pretty much learn everything from her.
2. Have you ever participated in a vigil?: vigil? whats that?
3. Do you take advice when it's given?: it depends, your not suppose to believe everything that someone tells you, because most the time its fake. really, it depends on if i want to believe it or not, depending on whats said to me.
4. What area are you wisest in?: im not sure, it depends on what is asked.
5. Do you drive defensively?: um, im not sure what this means so imma skip this question.
6. What did you learn today?: that life is great and showed be lived to its full extent... just as long as im with her, i know life is worth living.